The Roz Bruce Infusion


PARENTAL ADVISORY - EXPLICIT LYRICS

ALL LYRICS FROM SECOND ALBUM 'GOODBYE TO LOVE' BELOW:


Lyrics:

1 - Come With Me
Sitting still,
Feeling filled up
With so much life.
Did you kill
Eveyone?
'cause the world just died.
No-one left but you alive.

And you had gone,
Had to run, ah,
But I was high.
Would have told everyone,
Had only they survived.
But you were all that
Filled my mind.

Come with me,
I'll show you what it's like!
Things you'll see,
You'll never justify.
You'll be free,
And feel so alive.
But can't you see...
... You've already died.

You must be dead,
'cause you said
What it's like in Hell.
That's a place
In your head
That I know too well,
Tell me, how did it smell?
Well, well, well!
It smelt like flatulence
And alcohol
On stale breath,
That, with a strange
Metallic tang
When I turn to the left...
... But, no, that can't mean Death...


2 - Itching for a Mouthful
You leave me
Twitching
With arousal,
Itching
For a mouthful
Of your mouth.
I touch my face,
Pretend it's your hand,
My heart races
At the thought, and,
It's true!.. ...
For nearly seven seconds,
Then I'm back in a bed that
You're out.
And, yeah, I'm less twitching
With arousal, now, but still
Itching
For a mouthful
Of you.

What the Hell have I got to say?
To make you look my way,
So I can let it out?
What the Hell have I got to do?
All I want is all of you!
Even if I fucked a thousand men,
I'd still not be anything
CLOSE to satisfied.
No - I'd just look at each of them,
And grab which parts of you
Were coming through their eyes.

All I want is all of you.

Please say you've got some time to spare,
I'd wear what you asked me to wear, you know.
I'd probably eat all my own hair,
If I thought that'd make you care, though.

What the Hell have I got to say?

3 - The Go-Getter

He told me "There's much more to life than just pleasure"
With a smile that suggested advice - the best ever,
And a thought-addled look in those eyes, like brown leather
boots which I never would buy but admire still.

He was so clever
And I know that he knew my mind even better
than I do currently and no-one will ever
provide such a colourful time as he would for me.


A go getter,

He's a go getter,
The go getter...


He shifted his stool so he was seated in front
And at my quizzical glance he smirked and he muttered
“I'm sorry – I just needed to look at you...”

He's telling me stories but I don't know what
And it's not that they're boring – definitely not,
But my mind's exploring everywhere it shouldn't do...

But he told me “there's much more to life than just pleasure”,
And that smile suggested advice – the best ever,
And I should know better...

 

4 - I am not a crook
It wasn't like I looked
Until I found a taken man
To whom I could get hooked,
I'm asking you to understand,
I wasn't trying to find
Someone, to fill my time
And mind.
Thought I was the "lonesome" kind.
Could not believe my luck,
When you... ... Came and
Pulled me up,
When I felt lowest of the low,
You know, you pulled me up,
When I'd gone as low as I could go.
You really pulled me up,
By my thighs, onto your face,
And then you threw me down
And made sure we were both
In the best place *BANG*
It was 3 o' clock.
You had to fetch your kids from school,
But that was cool - completely cool -
I'd never want to steal you,
No, I am not a crook.

But you've got me begging
"Please, could I just see you for an hour?
Even twenty minutes? You don't even need to have showered!"
This is too much teasing, too much teasing, too much teasing.


I already lost my shame,
Around when I gained a blackened name.
Don't want it back again:
Was just a hinderance and a pain.
So, yeah, I did do that,
And that, and that,
I probably did that, too,
But one thing that I always knew
Was the value of being true,
Because I am not a crook.

But you've got me begging
"Please, could I just see you for one hour?
Even twenty minutes? I don't care if you haven't showered!"
This is too much teasing, too much teasing, I'm doing too much pleading.

I try to call you up,
But it's only ten past nine,
You won't be at the pub,
For at least another hour's time.
So, of course, you don't pick up,
Because that'd only cause a stir,
But that is cool - completely cool -
I'd never steal you from her,
Not even if I could.
I'd never steal you from her,
No - I am not a crook.
Do you reckon, maybe,
I could just about get away with
Saying I'm a "fool for love?"
I know!
I'd be the millionth person claiming that phrase today
But, you know, It's true enough.
I've been a fool.
But it wasn't like I looked
Until I found a taken man
To whom I could get hooked.
No - I am not a crook.

5 - What's it worth?
Tell me, what's it worth to you?
The "something" that we share.
I think that it deserves some recognition,
And that we should take more care.

Tell me what it's worth,
And is it more now it's in danger?
For a brief time I meant the Earth to you.
I couldn't stand us to be strangers.

Right now, all we do is hurt each other.
And I know that you'll deny it.
But it takes two,
Just like all tangles do, so
Act aloof,
But I won't buy it.

Tell me what it's worth,
I'm asking for a price!
We both know I've requested worse from you,
And you were happy to oblige.

Tell me what it's worth,
This "something" that we share,
There was a time when I meant the Earth to you.
I don't believe that you don't care.

6 - Caused a Stir
There's an ache in my throat,
A tear in my eye,
But, believe it or not,
You're doing everything right
'cause I didn't cry for two years,
And now you're inspiring some tears.
I didn't cry for two years,
'cause I was dulled down and cold,
Too cold for people to hold,
Whatever they told you.
Shared some moments of laughter,
But I was gone shortly after.
Now, there's an ache in my throat,
A tear in my eye,
But, believe it or not,
I'm feeling alive,
And it's good to feel alive.
Thank you for freeing my cries.

Why don't you miss me?
The way I miss you!
Please, please tell me
When you kissed me,
Say it wasn't really
Merely me kissing you.
And please - for God's sake -
When you and me-
... Please tell me you weren't
Thinking of when
You and her-
I know you know who I mean:
The one who caused a stir.

A double vodka and coke
And I'm feeling alright,
I'll have a laugh and a joke
With a new set of guys,
Then quickly check on my phone,
See if you have replied,
When the answer's still no,
I'm simply killing more time...

Why don't you miss me?
The way I miss you!
Please, please tell me
When you kissed me,
Say it wasn't really
Merely me kissing you.
And please - for God's sake -
When you and me-
... Please tell me you weren't
Thinking of when
You and her-
I know you know who I mean:
The one who caused a stir.


7 - Get a Life
I'm looking into your eyes,
Remembering all the times we shared,
When we were young and foolish.
We said we'd live for the highs,
Never worry about getting by,
But, you know, we just couldn't do this.
The highs are no longer highs,
And the smile's just a disguise of how you feel.
Well, now's the time to heal.
Each time you escape your mind,
You're leaving a lot behind that's yet to deal with.
Well, now's the time to feel.

There's so much out there to see,
And so much that you could be,
If only something made you happy.
It can't be somebody else:
It has to be yourself that finds
Your only way of life.

You're running from your own mind
Because you're scared of what you'll find inside,
But you don't want to lose it.
You're wasting your precious time
On people with dulled down lives,
But you don't have to choose it.

Live your own life.

8 - As though I had a choice

I sat and said "never again."
As though I had a choice.
Declared it wasn't worth the pain.
You'd have thought I had a voice.

But there is no noise I could make,
To drown out what's in your eyes,
I wouldn't even want to try.

 

Nobody likes clichés,
But I could gaze at your gaze
For days.
We could wither and waste
And both get rid of our taste
For haste.


I used to enjoy being fast,
Unaware of where I was running to,
But then I stumbled on you.

And I don't need to explain:
There's nothing I could say.
This doesn't have a name.


9 - If I was a man
If I was a man,
I'd be coming and taking you by the hand.
I'd say, "Darling, what is this all about?"
I can see you being sucked into
The gripping, gritty, brown of the sinking sand.
And I'll use all of my strength
To pull you up, and drag you all the way out.


Maybe reality bites you
'cause it likes you.
Maybe it strikes you so hard,
'case it wants you to feel.
You can sure trust it more
Than anything you score,
I have not seen a key
In the shape of a needle, yet.

In the words of Neil Young,
I've seen the damage done,
But we've all heard of damage repair.
And they say you must go
To the lowest you'll go,
I don't know if you've already been there.
But I've seen you low,
And I've seen you high,
And a mixture of both shone through shame
In your eyes,
When I saw you that day
Killing time, on the side,
Is it boredom, or pain
From which you try to hide?

10 - Where would I be without you?

You know you really nearly messed things up with us, don't you?
You know it fucking hurt me when you pulled my guts through my throat.
Worry not - I don't believe in an eye for an eye,
I'll probably reject religion till the day that I die
And I'll defend you to your grave, however badly you behave,
But please don't!

 

I know that guilt's a burden and a nasty word in our lives,
And I'd hate to trouble you with any of that.
And I know you really meant it that you wouldn't lie,
But you know that there are certain things you shouldn't hide
And it might have sounded strange to say my feelings wouldn't change,
But they won't.


I still want to know more and more about you.
I'd still walk through every door with glee.
And I do believe in a key for a key
So, keep it even, give yours to me,
Come on, please?
Where would I be without you?


11 - Goodbye to Love
When you came,
It was as though you were my first,
I swallowed all of you with thirst,
and relished each and every word.
Like they were words I'd never heard,
And, granted, some of them they were.
But I knew,
I knew that all of them were true
and still there's nothing I won't do for you,
Except...

Except waste another day,
Waiting,
Just in case you say hello,
Because I'm saying goodbye to love

We both know our time is up,
These sweet, sporadic spurts of love
are everything,
Except enough.
Let's go back to being friends,
We both knew this side would end,
We could swap tales of one-night-stands,
Laugh off our lack of long-term plans,
Because I'm saying goodbye to love.

Your name
Is always falling from my mouth
and always causing raised eyebrows
and smirks and all those other perks
we get from knowing someone's weak,
I show it every time I speak of you.
But I'm not ashamed
to have given up to you
because I know that all of it was true,
and we both knew
that one day
One of us would have to say

We'd say goodbye to love,

We both know our time is up,
These sweet, sporadic spurts of love
are everything,
Except enough.
Let's go back to being friends,
We both knew this side would end,
We could swap tales of one-night-stands,
Laugh off our lack of long-term plans,
Because I'm saying goodbye to love...

… I don't care if it's the “secret ingredient”
or the one thing that gives life any meaning
or the best feeling a human can be feeling;
I'd rather swim round in a sea of rotting semen
than even inflict this kind of pain on anyone;
It's like I want to be sick but it's never going to come
and like my heart has been ripped out, but still hasn't gone,
It hasn't gone,
But I'm saying goodbye to love.

ALL LYRICS FROM DEBUT ALBUM 'YOU DESERVE TO BE HERE' BELOW:

I SENTENCE YOU TO LIFE:

We were pushed here,
naked and screaming
and nameless
and covered in muck.

A knowing voice laughed
“Start as you mean to go on!”
“I sentence you to life!”
Somebody screamed, and,
there was joyous crying for some reason.
A knowing voice laughed
“Spend it however you want!”

I SENTENCE YOU TO LIFE
I SENTENCE YOU TO LIFE...

So when you're lying,
Drenched in discomfort,
Wishing time away,
Just remember
you're condemned to be here,
never had a say.
Your free actions
are still reactions
to other peoples stray.
Foe or friend,
We're all condemned
to be here,
finding our own way...

… OUT!

OUT.
I SENTENCE YOU TO LIFE!

We were pushed here,
naked and screaming
and nameless
and covered in muck.
And they say that was beautiful!


LADY:
She'll always make you feel better than you did before.
Her sure ways take you so you're certain to run back for more,
She'll put a price on every minute like a dirty whore,
She'll take you higher than the sun then leave you lying on the floor.
 
She'll drain your money – but be worth it almost every time,
She'll stay your honey, for as long as you won't draw the line(s!)
She's got a magic that will stay with you until you die,
If her will had it, you'd remain her lover your whole life!
 
But she'll never ever ever ever ever ever satisfy,
The pale and perfect lady of the night,
She'll never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever satisfy,
And if you don't run soon, she'll hook you with a knife!
 
She'll never ever ever ever ever ever satisfy,
The pale and perfect lady of the night,
She can make you feel amazing, have the best time of your life,
But she'll never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever satisfy.

SECRET LIFE

When it gets to night, I live a secret life inside my mind.
I'm just trying to find and insight into what's inside.
Inside our minds, there's something we all need to find,
It may well hide, and you may not know what it's behind.

The people closest to me are in ways the furthest away,
I hardly tell them a thing, yet I expect them to stay,
But if they knew what I do I'm scared of what they might say,
No doubt it will all come out some day.

When it gets to night, I live a secret life inside my mind.
I'm just trying to find and insight into what's inside.
It gets to night... I close my door and turn out my light,
But don't close my eyes – instead I open them more wide!

When it gets to night (build up)

The people closest to me are in ways the furthest away,
I hardly tell them a thing, yet I expect them to stay,
But if they knew what I do I'm scared of what they might say,
No doubt it will all come out some day.

The people closest to me are in ways the furthest away,
I hardly tell them a thing, yet I expect them to stay,
But if they knew what I do I'm scared of what they might say,
No doubt it will all come out some day.

HOW COULD I?
I think about your soul now and again,
Wondering if it's grown, and wondering,
How much it really knows about this sin...
 
I hope there's glee there, in your ether life,
I hope you're free there, free from pain and strife,
I hope to be there, soon as I've survived...
 
Of course I didn't tell him,
How could I?
He might have gone to Hell,
The same as I did...
No... No, I thought I'd hide it!
No... No, I thought I'd hide it!
 
He didn't see the blood on my hands,
Or the shame in my eyes,
And it wasn't as though we'd made plans
To create a new life,
No... No, it's better just I know!
No... No, it's better just I know!
 
I feel a presence prickling my hair,
Is it your essence, telling me you're there?
Teaching me lessons, giving me a scare?
 
I really hope you're liberated dead,
And that you know I'm living in regret,
And that I won't forgive and won't forget...
 
Of course I didn't tell him,
How could I?
He might have gone to Hell,
The same as I did...
No... No, I thought I'd hide it!
No... No, I thought I'd hide it!
 
He didn't see the blood on my hands,
Or the shame in my eyes,
And it wasn't as though we'd made plans
To create a new life,
No... No, it's better just I know!
No... No, it's better just I know!
 
He didn't see the blood on my hands.

DAYS ENTWINE
It's no use going “Calm down and be rational!”
Because we all know that feelings feel and that is all.
If they're not real then what is real anyway?
What is real, and who is anyone to say?

Days
Entwine,
Pathetic
Routine,
Eat,
Sleep,
Sigh...
Envision
Dying.

You're seeing red and shouted at to 'get a grip!'
The words you've dreaded – now you're going to really flip!
Counting to 10 is fine - if you're a fantasy,
But this is real – hang on, what is reality?

Days
Entwine,
Pathetic
Routine,
Eat,
Sleep,
Sigh...
Envision
Dying.

Dark
Emotions
Paralyse,
Real
Eyes
See
Suicide,
Excitement
Dies...

Dull,
Empty
People
Roam
Everywhere.
Soulless
Stares,
Enticing
Demons.

SOCIAL FREAK
You mustn't speak – you're a social freak!
Stay home weekends and most of the week.
And anyway, you've got nothing to say!
Because you just stay where you feel safe.

You don't really want to be alone,
But you're paralysed by fear of what they think,
And you're scared you're gonna die alone,
Because all the 'ships you have go on to sink.

You mustn't speak – you're a social freak!
You haven't left your house for weeks!
But now you're out and there's people about...
You're terrified of being part of a crowd!

You don't really want to be alone,
But you're paralysed by fear of what they think,
And you're scared you're gonna die alone,
Because all the 'ships you have go on to sink.

13 HOURS
Another cigarette, but,
You can't burn regret away.
Think I'll just stay in bed 'cause,
My head is full of yesterdays.
Another dirty morning – skin is crawling, tears are falling.
Another thirteen hours, then I can feel your powers again...

You've got a twinkle in your eye!
That tells me everything's alright,
I don't mean to romanticize,
No, you just take me every night!

You're not even number one, but,
You make me feel the way I want.
Not even number five, but,
Still you make me feel alive.
Until the dirty morning – skin will crawl and tears will fall again.
Another painful waking, hands are shaking, bodies aching...
But it's just another thirteen hours, then I can feel your powers again.
Until the dirty morning – skin will crawl and tears will fall again!

You've got a twinkle in your eye!
That tells me everything's alright,
I don't mean to romanticize,
No, you just take me every night!

Another cigarette, but,
You can't burn regret away.
Think I'll just stay in bed 'cause,
My head is full of yesterdays.
Another thirteen hours, then I can feel your powers again...
Until the dirty morning – skin will crawl and tears will fall again!

JIMMY
Jimmy bragged
About how hard he was.
Clenched his fist
And talked about a fight.
Two weeks off
Then he's back to work,
Killing men
Whilst thinking of his wife.
Wife at home
Sits and bites her nails...
Jimmy said
“Everything's all right!”
But Jimmy bragged
About how hard he was,
Clenched his fist
And talked about a fight.

“Last night, you really really should have been there,
Yeah, there was that time when I had my boot upon the back of his neck!
And there was one guy twitching in the corner, not knowing where he was,
It was one of those nights I know I'm never gonna forget!”

Jimmy spoke
Of very little else.
But two weeks off,
You'd think it was his life.
Sat and drank
Another seven pints,
Clenched his fist
And talked about a fight.

“Last night, you really really should have been there,
Yeah, there was that time when I had my boot upon the back of his neck!
And there was one guy twitching in the corner, not knowing where he was,
It was one of those nights I know I'm never gonna forget!”

“Last night, you really really should have been there,
Yeah, there was that time when I had my boot upon the back of his neck!
And there was one guy twitching in the corner, not knowing where he was,
It was one of those nights I know I'm never gonna forget!”

STAMPING
I always thought myself as one immune to hatred,
But no;
I ain't that pure and white!
When it comes down to it,
my mind is pretty tainted,
But,
At the same time,
I know I'm right.

Most days it's fine,
Then someone flippantly decides
to bring you up,
with comments,
lacking any tact:
“Remember this, remember that? I always thought he was a twat.”
As though I needed reminding of that!

 I won't be over you,
till I'm standing on your head and
stamping
stamping
stamping till you're dead
with people
wanking
wanking
wanking over your corpse
and thanking
thanking
thanking me for the show.

Yeah, I want them thanking me for the show.
And wanking over your corpse.

To think, I thought myself as one immune to hatred,
Well, no,
I ain't that pure and white.
When it comes down to it,
My mind and life are tainted
and I'm always thinking I'm the one that's right.
Most days it's fine,
and then I find you in my mind,
unwanted memories start stamping through my head.
But, it's in my head,
it's in my mind,
it's in my mind,
it's in my head,
ain't that – ain't that what you always said?


 I won't be over you,
till I'm standing on your head and
stamping
stamping
stamping till you're dead
with people
wanking
wanking
wanking over your corpse
and thanking
thanking
thanking me for the show.

ANHEDONIA
Tried querying what could have controlled the 'off' switch,
In a half-hearted attempt to care.
In theory I'm not really supposed to brush-off this,
But I can't start to attempt to care.

I regret to confess that I feel nothing more than indifference;
People come and people go.
I would never request that I feel so boringly listless,
What's said and done was real, you know...

But now all that exists is nothing
There's no need to resist with nothing
Desire - part of history, nothing.
There's no need to insist on nothing.

There's a part of me cares that I'm feeling so utterly careless
But I don't want to know.
There's a part of me scared by my apparent lack of awareness
But what else could I show?

Now all that exists is nothing
There's no need to resist with nothing
Desire - part of history, nothing.
There's no need to insist on nothing.

I regret to confess that I feel nothing more than indifference;
People come and people go.
I would never request that I feel so boringly listless,
What's said and done was real, you know...

Now all that exists is nothing
There's no need to resist with nothing
Desire - part of history, nothing.
There's no need to insist on nothing.

WICKED WHILE
She fell in love with a wise man,
Maybe she thought he could guide them through life.
She felt so lucky to find him,
And to become his first and only wife.
She carried two of his children,
With confidence that they'd fill them with joy,
She said it nothing but thrilled them,
To discover that it would be one girl, one boy.

But it was only a wicked, wicked while,
And it was merely a measly, measly mile,
Until the demons started screaming:
“You're in Hell now, stop your dreaming...
the worst part is that you deserve to be here!”
You deserve to be here!

She felt a terrible person,
Thought surely there's not much worse than what she's done,
She'd take your bubbles and burst them,
Caress and cuddle, then curse you to the ground.

It's only ever a wicked, wicked while,
And always merely a measly, measly mile,
Until the demons start their screaming:
“You're in Hell now, stop your dreaming...
the worst part is that you deserve to be here!”
You deserve to be here!

“Who am I?” she shouted: “Who am I and, why oh why oh why oh why am I this way? Don't deny me of the way I'm feeling! Someone find me, answer me, I'm screaming!
Who am I and why oh why oh why oh... why oh why am I this way? Why oh why oh why oh why oh why oh why??”

Why's it only ever a wicked, wicked while?
And why's it merely a measly, measly mile?
Until the demons start their screaming:
“You're in Hell now, stop your dreaming...
the worst part is that you deserve to be here!”
You deserve to be here...
For a wicked while!